Thursday, May 20, 2010

we're almost there (princess tiana's theme song)

just as dr. shivani promised she has given us the good news that all systems are now go. we have a beautiful new surrogate. i just want to jump through the screen and hug her tightly. i hope and pray to follow in your footsteps guys and soon post photos on the blog of our little one(s) holding on in the womb.

in the meantime i am now studying to take the new york bar exam in july and in a word let me just say it's intense! so if you don't hear from me often it's only because my head is in the books and i'm blurry eyed. i am still with you all in my prayers and dreams and think of you often in between learning the law and keeping my sanity. keep blogging!

Monday, May 10, 2010


Now that we're inching our way through the month I realize that our new surrogate has possibly been chosen and the preliminaries are more than likely underway. This is good news. However now I begin to wonder and naturally worry about the..... what's a good word, chances, probabilities, odds, of our frozen embryos making it to survival?

My fresh embryo transfer went so smoothly. Now after 17 frozen embryos, three failed fet's and only 4 little snowflakes left, I'm wondering if being frozen lessens the viability to the point that they just won't survive. I thought with 3 miscarriages that it was just me. Then my last surrogate experience the exact same lost as I did. It starts with a low beta, (depressing) then a rise in beta, (estatic) then by day 15 a significant beta drop and then the baby is gone..... (deeply depressed).

Has anyone done any significant research on FET's. I've tried but have yet to find anything other than there have been succes stories. Even though they are few, is it all just a matter of what is meant to be will be? que sera sera

It also seems to me that if FET's were not viable the medical community would not consider it as an option. Would they?

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

love u guys

gee everyone... thank you so much for your support. gosh this means so much. i hope i didn't hurt anyone's feelings with my OMG blog, especially yours amani. i was feeling a little crazed, like my life is at a standstill. i've got a couple of irons in the fire and nothing has caught yet. sigh! i had the best dose of medicine possible, turning to you guys. my hubby's about to come home so gotta go - my other best medicine. will tune in tomorrow

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


Wow what happened yesterday? I am so sad. Charlie Cat lost her second little bean, Armani cussed someone out and I love u Oreo but what was the photo of the baby's buns suppose to be about - i didn't get it. Lets get back on track guys. Love, positive thoughts, we can do this